So...

Now I wait all my tests are done so I am just waiting for the results. I never knew that I was inpatient until I had to wait for these results. They told me the results will be ready within a week so that is only 2 more days and I still have not heard from them. But in a way that might be a good thing that they did not call right away but not knowing is kind of nerve racking. So hopefully I get a call soon.

I had my appointment with the clinic and it went quite well. They are just going to monitor me at the clinic until I have the ok from the doctors at the cross cancer to continue. So I will go there every three months for a appointment and every month for a weigh in. They are just going to be quick appointments because my file is kind of on hold right now. Hopefully everything will go well for me there.

So I started school again last week and I already forgot how much work school can be especially if you are not used to being in school any more. Also when you have been out of school for almost a year you fill up your evenings and weekends with other stuff so it is hard to add school into the equation again. But this is my last class and then I will be an official college graduate. I am not quite sure I might go back for more classes because I seem to get back all of my money back after taxes so that could also improve my employability in case I ever need to have a new job.

I was thinking about buying a house or a mobile home in the spring but now I am not quite sure if I will be able to do it now because I wanted to wait a couple of months between my last surgery and my move out day and I have no clue when that would be now. So maybe instead of moving out I will go on a vacation I am not quite sure.

Well I am kind of babbling and I better go eat my lunch before it is time to go back to work.

Two Tests down one more to go...

So today I had my second test to see if the cancer has spread or not a CT Scan. For some reason I thought that a CT Scan put you in a narrow tube like the MRI Machine did when I had my MRI in July so I was kind of dreading it. But although it was not as bad as the MRI I still have that test on Thursday and then they will go over the results with me hopefully in the next couple of weeks.

The last test that I had which was a blood test came back negative for any cancer indicators. This is a good thing but it is not the most accurate test to go by so hears to hoping that I hear something back from the cross cancer before January 31st which is my date of my appointment at the weight wise clinic.

My Appointment...

Last week I had my very first appointment at the Cross Cancer Institute. It was actually quite scary to go into the building for the first time because you never quite new what to expect. In the morning we went to an orientation where a very nice man showed us around the hospital and told us what to expect for your first visit. Then we had to wait a couple of hours until it was time for my appointment with the oncologist.

The oncologist explained the type of cancer that I have and that they would normally like to treat this type of cancer with hormone therapy when they have a younger patient. But they have to see if it has spread so they cannot make any decisions until I have a MRI and CT Scan of my body to make sure that the cancer has not spread. So I am having my CT next Monday afternoon and then I just have to wait until they book the MRI and then they will make a decision regarding how to treat the cancer. She put me on hormone therapy in the meantime because the earlier I am on it the better.

Also she called the weight wise clinic while I was there and they are going to keep me in the program. So I have a meeting there on the 31st because the type of pills that I am on has a major side effect that you will gain weight while on it. So the clinic is going to try and figure out a way to counteract the pills.

I will let you all know how it goes.

2012

This past weekend we celebrated new years and to tell the truth although 2011 was a year where I had a lot of doctors appointments and had 2 different surgery's I was sad to see it go. I was also kind of disappointed that it was already 2012 it seems like just a short time ago we were at the VanK's celebrating 2011 and the fact that Michelle and Richard were going to have a baby and now this year Katie is already 6 months old. But it also seems like it was a long year. It is a year that tried my patience (and believe me if you knew me you would know that I have zero patience.) As it was a year of constantly waiting to here back from the doctor to see when I could have my gastric bypass surgery.

On December 5 I went to the doctors office very excited that I could finally get a letter approving me for surgery. Instead the doctor told me that I have stage 1 cancer. They caught it when it first began because there was no cancer in July but it was there in October. So instead of getting the surgery I have to wait for an appointment at the Cross Cancer to see what my next coarse of action will be. That appointment is in 9 days from now. It is still not sinking in that this is really happening but I have resolved to not worry to much about it until the day of the appointment. I cannot really do anything about it right now I really just have wait and pray about it. So I might be having surgery again in the near future but not the gastric bypass surgery.

The clinic called me two weeks later just before Christmas to tell me that they would like to cancel my bypass surgery and remove me from the program and then I can reapply at a later date when I am well. Right now my family doctor is trying to help me stay in the program. I am not quite sure why they would kick me out of the program instead of just putting my file on hold.

2012 is going to be a year full of ups and downs and so when the clock changed to 12 and I was down town watching the fireworks I was quite sad that 2011 was over because although it was a year of waiting at least there was some hope that I would have my surgery and now I am not sure if I will have it for a really long time. I am just hoping and praying that my appointment will go well next Thursday and that I will have a definite plan after that and my life will no longer seem like it is in limbo.