2012

This past weekend we celebrated new years and to tell the truth although 2011 was a year where I had a lot of doctors appointments and had 2 different surgery's I was sad to see it go. I was also kind of disappointed that it was already 2012 it seems like just a short time ago we were at the VanK's celebrating 2011 and the fact that Michelle and Richard were going to have a baby and now this year Katie is already 6 months old. But it also seems like it was a long year. It is a year that tried my patience (and believe me if you knew me you would know that I have zero patience.) As it was a year of constantly waiting to here back from the doctor to see when I could have my gastric bypass surgery.

On December 5 I went to the doctors office very excited that I could finally get a letter approving me for surgery. Instead the doctor told me that I have stage 1 cancer. They caught it when it first began because there was no cancer in July but it was there in October. So instead of getting the surgery I have to wait for an appointment at the Cross Cancer to see what my next coarse of action will be. That appointment is in 9 days from now. It is still not sinking in that this is really happening but I have resolved to not worry to much about it until the day of the appointment. I cannot really do anything about it right now I really just have wait and pray about it. So I might be having surgery again in the near future but not the gastric bypass surgery.

The clinic called me two weeks later just before Christmas to tell me that they would like to cancel my bypass surgery and remove me from the program and then I can reapply at a later date when I am well. Right now my family doctor is trying to help me stay in the program. I am not quite sure why they would kick me out of the program instead of just putting my file on hold.

2012 is going to be a year full of ups and downs and so when the clock changed to 12 and I was down town watching the fireworks I was quite sad that 2011 was over because although it was a year of waiting at least there was some hope that I would have my surgery and now I am not sure if I will have it for a really long time. I am just hoping and praying that my appointment will go well next Thursday and that I will have a definite plan after that and my life will no longer seem like it is in limbo.