Lately it seems like lots of people that I know are sick.  It is kind of weird because before I had my diagnosis I never noticed it as much.  Maybe it was because I was in my own little world or maybe you hear it and you do not think of it so much.  I guess being sick makes you more aware of everyone else's illnesses.  It also makes you aware of your mortality and how God knows the number of our days even though we do not know them.

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I was on Facebook today and found some pictures I wanted to share with you all.  The first one shows what Gastric Bypass surgery is and the changes that they make to your stomach to bypass it.

The second picture is the reason why I am doing this surgery.  Although I do not have a lot of symptoms because of my weight I do not want to continue and then have these problems in the future.

Hopefully that helps clarify why I am doing this surgery and what I am having done to me.  I was at my support group meeting this week and they spoke about whether of not they would tell people that they have had the surgery again.  When people hear that you are having the surgery or have had the surgery they think that it is the easy way out.  I have to remember that the surgery is a tool it is not the only thing that you do to loose the weight.  You also have to make sure you are eating the correct amount of calories and complete physical activity.  This surgery is known to have the greatest benefits in the first year and then after that while you still have the restriction your body has adjusted to the change and you loose weight more slowly.  I am not quite sure what I have decided.  Will I tell everyone that I know or just select people.  I guess I will have to decide.

One year

So I was thinking today that last Saturday it would have been one year since I went into the emergency room late at night because of extreme pain and blood clots resulting in large blood loss. I had had the symptoms before but I just thought that they were normal until that day when they became extreme. They even ended up having to give me morphine for the pain because no other pain medicine would help then as fast as this pain came in left and I was released. The er doctor wanted to do a emergency D&c to stop the bleeding and then it stopped. The doctors were all baffled but they told me to follow up in a couple of days with my doctor so she could make sure that my blood levels were normal and then I got to drive he from red deer as I was not permitted to drive all the way to lethbridge because I had lost almost enough blood to need a blood transfusion in only a couple of hours so the doctor wanted me close to my gynecologist in case this happened again.

In a couple of weeks it will be one year from my first d&c and one year since I started my hormone treatment. For some reason it seems like a short time but also like a long time too.

This sickness has caused me to become more and more patient and also become closer to God. It has also delayed my surgery from 4 months to 14 months and counting. I think in a way this is good because I do not think I was ready for it then. I had committed to it on paper but I did not fully grasp the decision that I made. So this year has helped me to get to know other people that have had the surgery so that I can be 100% sure that I need to have this surgery.

I just signed the paperwork for my surgery in August this is to see if the cancer is there. I am just hoping and praying that this time I will get the positive results that I am cancer free.

Update

Lately I have been starting to update my blog and I cannot think of anything to write.  I have been taking my pill for 1 month and 1 week and today I am finally starting to feel somewhat normal again.  It seems like when I start to take a new medicine then I have to take several other pills to counteract the medication's side effects.  Also since they are adjusting my hormone levels there are a lot of side effects that could happen.  


On Sunday it was my niece Katie's first Birthday.  Since she lives far away we never went to see her on her birthday but hopefully I will get to be able to see her soon.  Katie's birthday is also the day that I first had the symptoms that I had pre cancer.  I ended up in the hospital in Red Deer and never got to see her until she was a week old because I was not allowed to travel long distances.  


Well I cannot think of anything else to update.  Right now my life is pretty boring all I seem to have the energy for is work, go to gym and then I fall asleep.  So I don't really have that much to update you all with.