One year

So I was thinking today that last Saturday it would have been one year since I went into the emergency room late at night because of extreme pain and blood clots resulting in large blood loss. I had had the symptoms before but I just thought that they were normal until that day when they became extreme. They even ended up having to give me morphine for the pain because no other pain medicine would help then as fast as this pain came in left and I was released. The er doctor wanted to do a emergency D&c to stop the bleeding and then it stopped. The doctors were all baffled but they told me to follow up in a couple of days with my doctor so she could make sure that my blood levels were normal and then I got to drive he from red deer as I was not permitted to drive all the way to lethbridge because I had lost almost enough blood to need a blood transfusion in only a couple of hours so the doctor wanted me close to my gynecologist in case this happened again.

In a couple of weeks it will be one year from my first d&c and one year since I started my hormone treatment. For some reason it seems like a short time but also like a long time too.

This sickness has caused me to become more and more patient and also become closer to God. It has also delayed my surgery from 4 months to 14 months and counting. I think in a way this is good because I do not think I was ready for it then. I had committed to it on paper but I did not fully grasp the decision that I made. So this year has helped me to get to know other people that have had the surgery so that I can be 100% sure that I need to have this surgery.

I just signed the paperwork for my surgery in August this is to see if the cancer is there. I am just hoping and praying that this time I will get the positive results that I am cancer free.