Week 17

This week I went to Body Worlds to here my surgeon speak.  It was fascinating to watch clips of him doing surgery and to be able to use the interments that he uses to do surgery.  It was just the thing I needed to be able to see what he actually did to me from the inside out.  Sometimes I wish I was not so squeamish around blood otherwise I would probably quit my current career and do something in the medical field.  I always think that maybe I should become I dietitian   Then I could help people in the same position I was in.  However I hated school when I was in school and do not think I would be able to go to school for 6 more years.  So I will continue to do what I am doing.  

Zuzana has been trying to convince me to become a certified instruction and teach fitness classes in my spare time.  This way I will have to exercise every day because I will have people expecting to have me teach them what to do.  I am really interested in this but right now I have to focus on my personal journey and then maybe in a year I will become a instructor and teach my own classes.  

Right now I am just trying to cope with some personal things that are happening in my life.  I am just trying to grasp at things that people do to themselves.  Sometimes I just cannot figure out what I should do.  

Week 16

Sometimes the internet is the worst thing that you can research with.  I do this once in a while well I am bored and then I worry.  Am I losing two much weight or am I eating too much.  These are answers that cannot be answered on the internet.  One person will tell you that you need to be eating no more then 800 calories a day well another one says 1200 calories a day.  My dietician says 1200 so I think I will stick with that.

I am also losing to much weight to fast according to my dietician.  I will start losing muscle more then fat and I will also start losing my hair.  The hair is because I am protein deficient and I must admit I am afraid to wash or brush it out because of the amount that falls out.  I must have lost 1/2 my hair so far and seem to be losing more and more of it everyday.  It is supposed to come back after 3 months but with my family history I am not quite sure.

Well that is my update this week.  As of yesterday I am down 111 pounds.  Right now life is busy but I will try and post a picture comparison soon.

Week 15

It has been another difficult week.  I have been working lots and have not had that much time off to deal with anything.

I am not down 106 pounds and am feeling great.  It is weird not being on any medications but I am loving it so far.

Week 14

This week has been a hard week.  It started with Shauna and I going to surprise Michelle in Coaldale for Katie's Birthday.  We had a great weekend and it was really nice to see them all again.  The boys have grown so much in the last couple of months and it was nice to see them again.  We bought them a slide for their birthday and set it up in there living room and Katie loved it.  It was so much fun.

I have been dealing with some very difficult things.  I am not sure how it will turn out and the lack of sleep is not helping.  But hopefully soon we will figure out a solution and it will be beneficial to my friend.  It is hard to see someone go through this and you are unable to help them.

I have not been working out like I usually do.  Hopefully I will be back at it in the gym soon.  But for right now I should just go to bed.

Week 13

So today is 3 months to the day of my last post.  I was going to post pictures but I have to wait until I can find someone to take pictures before I can post them.

This week was a pretty exciting week.  I went to Great Falls and Kalispell with a friend for the long weekend.  It was nice to get out and visit somewhere other then Lethbridge.

Also I have lost 100 pounds since this January.  No wonder why most of my clothes don't fit anymore.  I had a picture taken of me last week wearing the same clothes I did when I started and it looks so baggy.  I never realized it looked that bad on me.  So I went threw my bin of clothes that I had so I wear clothes that fit me better.

I have to go threw my clothes this week and give some of them away.  I have someone that needs them.  I just have to have time to sort through them.